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I always get moody during holiday breaks. Then again, this current school year has been different. I have been moody basically during my first semester of graduate school. I know the reason. Well, the various reasons. I would list them, but alas, why state what cannot be fixed...?

( For those who are bored enough to read this particular post... )

Maybe I should not play such video games that comment on society and the lives of others? But, then again, Alex loves the simulacrum created by this "Other World," and how, deep down, he thinks it is better then the "Real World." ...that, I honestly need to speak to a counselor actual feelings that deal with my mental issues and state. Both concepts that will probably never happen in Alex's lifetime.

Oh, well. At least I know being a freak makes me unique, right...?

So, I am spending the holiday season/my Winter Break at home in Omaha, NE, for the most part. Huzzah, I know.

Anyway, I have been feeling down as of late. Besides my lack of internet access (I was lazy, I admit, but the main computer I could use at home has been acting up), I have been playing a video game I got for Christmas, Persona 4, for PS2. Now, that is not a depressing part. It is a known fact that Alex LOVES video games, especially RPGs. In Persona 4, there is a character who I can relate to personally. Well, in a fashion (unlike the character, I was not a delinquent high school student who beat up gang members). It has really shook me up. I mean, the video game experience combined with my lack of communication with friends has made me sad. I know, weird, huh?

I think I will go to the Old Market tomorrow, as well as call some people. I actually want to buy something to hang in my car (the St. Patrick's Day green beads from last year just do not cut it for me anymore). I do not care for bumper-stickers anymore. That occurred during my high school years. It is queer that most of my active times in anything happened in high school. Then again, all one has is high school, not tons of other things... Eh, college and work are my life and love, not other activities.

Huzzah for the boring individual that is Alex...

Golly, who would have thought that I would still be in school...? (raises own hand) So, this coming week is final examinations week. What does Alex have to do, you might be (or not) wondering? Oh, the fun begins now...

I have a final exam Thursday night for my Thursday night ENGL 502 Literary Theory and Criticism class, as well as a 15+ page paper (about language and sexual desire) due by finals night. I do not have a final (nor meet) for my Monday night class, ENGL 632 Topics in Rhetoric. Instead, I have a smashing 20+ page paper (dealing with the Medieval knight/hero and today) due by Friday. For my Tuesday night class, ENGL 503 Computers and English, I just have to tweak my Web Translation project. I had to use Dreamweaver. I took six poems I wrote in high school and created a unique online visual experience. Here is the link: http://studentweb.stcloudstate.edu/wajo0802/WebTrans/BranisHighSchool.html. Basically, I need to figure out how to change the link colors on some of the pages, otherwise I am not too worried about it. I personally like it. Now, if I can finish the story I based off of these poems... Eh, my high school poetry... After re-reading some of the poems, I realize I truly was (still am...?) a freak. I would say other words, but I am not in the mood to do so.

I went to the school library today to finish some reading for my 15+ page paper. I was ideally going to do some typing. This is also what I said on Saturday when I went there, too. However, I barely am finished with the reading. I think one of the issues I have is how the concept of the library is being ignored with today's society. I spent more time wanting to kill someone near me who is babbling about some idiotic incident on his/her cell phone than reading my textbook. Honestly, a library is not social hour... But, what do I know. I am just a lowly graduate student...

I had to sign my job offer and go to a drug test thing today (yesterday) in the morning. It started out fine. I got to work a little bit past 8 AM, signed the offer form, then find out I had to drive to the drug test (do not ask me why I thought it would be in the same building, I just did). I had to drive near Westroads Mall, basically. Okay, fine. I just wondered how much my tank of gas would hold up the entire time.

So, I got to the drug test site, and said, "Yes, I can produce a sample." Well, it turned out I could not. Now, I did not know this thing was timed. In fact, I never did a drug test before. As a result of my lack of sampling, I was stuck at the drug test place for three hours, being given water so I can produce something. Yes, my morning was fun. I got to watch the entire Today Show on NBC, but I was tired. Plus, I did not have breakfast. Yes, I know I needed to have had fluids before I went, but between using the restroom after waking up and told to immediately get to the drug test place after stopping by work, how was I suppose to be ready? Eh, whatever. Afterwards, I went to Westroads, ate some lunch, and bought a video game. Yes, a video game. CSI for PS2, to be exact. I solved the first case (out of six). It froze on me during the second case (I did not save as often as I should have), although it kind of was my fault, because I was playing it for more than 2 or 3 hours straight. I like puzzle games, among others.

Eh, time to sleep...

So, I officially have a job! Well, pending my background check tomorrow at 8:30 AM, which I assume will be fine. As far as I know, I have not killed anyone or done any grand events of insanity in my 22 years...well, nothing grand, as I said. Eh, at any rate, I will start training on the 25th as an Emergency Response Operator for ADT Security Services. I think I then will be trained for another position, due to my work history, but I am not quite sure what it was called.

Other than that, I await to find out if I got accepted into St. Cloud State University. I e-mailed the department of Renaissance Studies at the University of Strathclyde (Scotland school) about my not attending. It was sad, but I really have no way of financially attending there, let alone to get there.

Ultimately, as long as Alex can get his own place soon, whether in Omaha or while in graduate school, the happier this young man will be.

Another day, another nothing. I have great luck... I still have no job, nor anyway close on figuring out how to go to school in Scotland or heard from St. Cloud State. Fun, fun, fun... I did find out my summer reading list for the Scotland school. Eh. If I am not able to attend the school, I need to find out soon, so I can let the department know. I still have not received the official letter of offer from the school.

For some odd reason, my stomach feels icky. I wonder if it is stress...more than likely, my lack of medication, but whatever...

I should call a friend and she what is going on...

...I got an offer to go to graduate school at the University of Strathclyde, which is in Scotland! I was completely taken aback when I read my e-mail from the director of the program I applied to (Renaissance Studies MLitt). I thought it was an e-mail informing me I was rejected (I e-mailed my pending schools status updates). I really am happy. It proves to me that I am smart enough for graduate school. Now, I have to figure out funding... (sigh) Otherwise, no Scotland. But, I will indeed find a way!

If it was not storming out, and I was not in my PJs, I would paint the town red!

So, I found out today I did not get hired by Hyatt Hotel Reservations Center. They really did have great benefits... (sigh) Well, I must continue on the search for a job. I honestly hoped getting a college degree would prove beneficial. I must have failed the "assessment." I mean, I have lots of customer service experience. I have worked in a call center (Oriental Trading, Co.) before.

I tried to call the IRS about my tax rebate. Heh-heh, that was a joke. I do not know how I will reach them if they are getting yelled at by others around the nation who have not received their rebates, yet. It really makes me think how messed-up our economy and nation is (not that this is anything new).

Well, at least tomorrow is Thursday. What does Thursday mean, you all ask? Well, for Alex, it means one of the coolest T.V. shows ever will be on (with new episodes, usually): The First 48. Yes, Alex has a CSI/forensics/criminal profile streak in him. Since I do not get TruTV (formerly known as CourtTV) at home, A&E is good enough as any. If I was good in science and psychology, I might have attempted to become a criminal profiler or detective. Eh, oh well.

Since watching my mom play Sims 2, I have started playing mine, again (albeit, my word processor is slow, so freezes are commonplace). I forget that I like to create families/sims, but not really play them. So, many of my families have just started learning skill points, heh. One thing that made me happy today while playing: one of my gay couples finally got to adopt a child! They apparently needed more financial income. Geez, one of the guys is a famous soccer player, that should be enough (it would in our society...)!

Eh, time to go...

I bought some clothes for my "assessment" tomorrow at the job I applied. Sad to say, I spent over $100 and more than enough time for shopping (oddly enough, I could have gotten what I needed all at ShopKo; they usually do not have "extended" sizes in clothing). However, I still did not get a haircut. On the other hand, I did shave my beard and sideburns off.

I am nervous, yet at the same time excited. Eh, maybe I am just tired...well, I am tired, heh-heh.

I am definitely getting a haircut tomorrow, though, after the job event. Summer+no haircut=icky Alex. Not fun.

Tomorrow...today...is Memorial day. If I was still in high school, and the school had not changed to end school before Memorial Day, I would have this Monday off. Anyway, what will I be doing? Hmm...shopping for clothes, a haircut, paying bills, and even refilling medication. Wow, I wonder how much graduation/last job/misc. money will disappear after this...?

I actually need to call some friends I have in the area. Well, let me say, two. I only have two friends' phone numbers. Everyone else that I have known do not live in the same place or have different numbers. Fun, eh?

Well, I guess this entry will be short. I plan on watching some more webflashes and then play more Nintendo DS. Packing has sure limited my video game exposure in a way. My Sega-CDX, N64, PS2, and Wii are all packed somewhere, and I just do not want to unpack everything to find them...lol!

Eh, whatever...

Huh, wow...I am posting after so long. Well, a lot has happened. I have now graduated from the University of MN-TC. I am a smashing owner of a B.A. in English. Now, I am back home in Omaha, NE, awaiting word of two pending graduate schools and job hunting.

So, back home...in Nebraska. Yes... Back to where there are four dogs who follow your every movement, where the house is a mess, and a tornado for a brother...ah, home sweet home...

Eh, it could be worse. At least I am sleeping in a house.



So, looking for a job in Omaha is like looking for where you misplaced your car/home keys; it sucks. I tried looking through the newspaper and Employment Guide. Plus, I am not quite sure what I am qualified now for. I know I can do customer service and clerical jobs well. Plus, I have that degree. I guess I just need to look around more.

Thinks should look up for me if I just keep a positive attitude... I wish I studied that more in college...

Eh, I am still here. I just have been busy all of this past school year...same for next year. I have friends who would like to see me...hopefully this summer can remedy this. Um...as for any crucial news, my grandma passed away last Monday; I went to the funeral last Thursday. I am now back in RBC as a Summer CA. Senior year will have me back over at Frontier. I am studying for the GRE. Um, yeah...

I think that is all. Wow, look how much I can summarize my time since last I posted. How...sad? Eh...

Oh, how I missed my conservative state, where music lyrics can be censored for having sexual conotations, gay porn is illegal to sell, you are not a "true" young adult until age 19, and where I feel the most culturally, socially, and racially excluded ever. Yes, Nebraska...the good life...


I am currently in Omaha for Spring Break. My goal was to get a good chunk of my readings caught up on whilst I was home. Yeah...that has not happened, unfortunately. My home does not have any really good study places and there is no coffee shops or study areas in walking distance (I have no car).

I spent time with Traci again, and will be seeing Alex tomorrow. He will not be returning back to the U of M until Sunday. I am returning Saturday morning.

I got my siblings to watch Snakes on a Plane with me. Yes...they just loved it...heh-heh. I think they will never want to watch another movie with me ever again. I mean, you must admit, a stupid movie can be great.

I found out I will be a CA again for next school year in Frontier Hall. I am so happy! I got one of the locations that I wanted. I will be a Returner, huzzuh! Now, I just wonder if I will be a Summer CA or SA this summer.

I have been on YouTube watching some interesting videos. I would say cool, but that would make me an even more of a nerd than I already am. Anyway, I did one of my usual keyword searches, Final Fantasy, and came up with some "live action" FF videos. They are pretty hilarious spoofs. This may sound odd, but I wish I could do something like that...

It would be nice if this week was my parents' Spring Break for their schools, as well. I want to spend more time with them.


...I wish I had a car...oh well...(continues watching Skeleton Man on Sci-Fi: the channel of ridculous horror films).

This weekend was MBLGTACC 2007 (Midwest, Bisxexual, Lesbian, Gay, Transgendered, Ally College Conference 2007), or Alphabet Soup 2007. It was a lot of fun. It was an honor to have helped plan it and volunteer at it. Plus, I got to see Margaret Cho, my first live performance of a famous comedian. Rip-Van-Ho!

Eh, but alas, I am tired and got barely any homework done (I only got half-way through my Amer. Lit. I assignment).

I got to see one of my friends from NE! I had not seen her in basically three years! Yay for college conferences!

Das ist alles...

Wow, look at this, I posted an entry! Amazing...

Anyway, my live is busy. Classes are interesting, CAing is my life, and heaven forbid that I have anyone called "friends." I have not seen any of my non-school friends up here in the Twin Cities area since summer! I know, I know...how can one do that? Well, Alex can! Just think how it will be once (crosses fingers) I get accepted into grad school. My constant companion will be Beowulf...wait, it already is...

I brought my Sega CD-X system and some video games up with me from home after Winter Break. I finished Shining Force CD. I am currently playing Dark Wizard and Vay, but mainly Dark Wizard. I have been on eBay and other sites trying to get better CDs of some of my games. For example, in Dark Wizard, I cannot see the battle animations, due to it being scratched up a bit. Oh, it works like a few times, but then freezes the game. In addition, I want to get a Back-up RAM Cartridge for the Sega CD. The Internal Back-up in the system really has no space.

Eh, that is about it.

I am doing this out of the request of an LJ-companion. I am also bored and do not feel like playing Sims 2 at the moment. Warning: In the unlikely event someone does wishes to date me, please stop reading. With that being said...

55 Reasons not to Date Alex:

1. School comes first before anything else.

2. I constantly correct people on their grammar, even while they are speaking.

3. If we fought, I would more than likely ignore you and frustrate you because a fight by yourself is hard.
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Well, actually...I really did not do anything worth mentioning. It was just another quiet day of relaxation at home for Winter Break. Well, I did do some CA work...but, that was it, basically. I did watch about 2-3 hours or so of The Twilight Zone on Sci-Fi, whilst my siblings came and went from New Year Eve parties (returning way late today...yesterday) and going again. Hmm...is my sister home, yet...?

Eh, no car sucks, but then again, I am not spending any money. I guess that is a positive, since I do not have a lot on me right now.

I guess that is about it. Yay for my mundane boring life! Well, I am fune with it...whatever.

•For Abby: Did you see the commercial for Grendel on Sci-Fi? They did not say much, but I am sure it is taken (most likely "loosely") from Beowulf! I guess it will be airing Sat., Jan. 13, at 8 PM. Alas, I will be at a retreat, so I cannot watch it...(sigh)